Posts Tagged ‘message’

I Could Believe I’m Mean and Hurtful

February 26, 2014

I have been told that I am a terrible communicator, that I speak in hurtful ways,  and that I am very blaming.  Every single day I have to be extremely careful in how I come across, and the minute I just relax into being casual, I find that I seem harsh to certain people. 

Some days it feels too hard to have to be so utterly vigilant, to have to work so incredibly hard around sensitive souls.  Since I am one, it’s true that it’s also incredibly hard to be me at times. 

 There are days when I truly don’t know what is true and what is not, whether it’s me or it’s the circumstances around me.  When someone says, it’s ALL you, Oceana…it’s all a reflection of you…I take that quite seriously, literally, and to heart.  And then the learned pattern of self~blaming begins internally. 

 My mind begins thinking I must be such a horrible person to be creating such a world so filled with reflections of suffering, blame, and scarcity. My feelings follow, and because I am so deeply sensitive, my emotions are intense, often causing me fierce suffering.

 Why am I telling you all of this? I have a hunch that I am not alone in this.  It’s a pattern of thinking that causes me great suffering, until I apply the powerful remedy of holding myself with compassion and love.  I begin to see that this thought pattern is actually a byproduct of misinterpreted metaphysical teachings.  I began studying them at a young age, and so I suspect my mindset then took everything literally.  Combine that with a dysfunctional upbringing, and the neural programming is a severe message.

 The most powerful lesson I have learned (the hard way) this past year is that yes, it can be our perceptions (all our perceived creation), but that it’s crucial to discern what type of mirror is being reflected.  Some mirrors are just love.  Others are love disguised as suffering until we learn to set a boundary.  And still others are there to prompt us into action, service, or movement towards our next phase.

 There are so many ways to heal this, and to reset the neural thought patterns.  My path is always about self~discovery and learning new ways to heal myself and then to support deep healing in others.  A few of the tools I have found the most powerful are meditation, tantric yoga (sound, breath, movement), EFT, Spiritual Response Therapy, journaling, conscious dreaming, shamanic healing…

 I’d be interested to hear the ways in which you take in the well~meaning messages from spiritual teachings, and how they translate in your own life. 

Have you suffered from misinterpretations, or from paths that just did not fit your internal guidance? 

In what ways do you still find yourself  stuck in thinking patterns that are old, and feel frustrated that those thoughts keep dragging you back into old ways of being?


~Goddess Oceana




How To Hear God

June 21, 2012

This is a beginner’s guide, simple, straightforward, and concise.  I’d love to hear your experiences, how you listen for guidance, and what your meditation practice is as well.  Also, I am using “God” here for simplicity reasons, realizing everyone has their own personal way of describing a higher guidance.

First, you find a quiet place to sit.  Then you focus on your breathing..  Next, you bring your awareness to your heart.  Breathe in deeply through your nose, breathe out slowly.  Repeat.

Why the breathing?  Because your parasympathetic nervous system becomes calm when you breathe deeply and slowly, and this allows your mind to quiet down.  A loud mind cannot hear God.  Who can hear anything over a rock concert or a war?

You may have to do this sitting and breathing thing over and over again.  Days, weeks, and possibly months…somewhere in the space between breaths, you’ll begin to find a soft quiet that is profoundly blissful.  You might find yourself addicted to this sitting and breathing practice, because if you can get yourself to do it, you’ll find out how good it feels.

There will be times when your rock concert mind or your mind at war with itself, or your soap opera mind, or whatever your mind is chattering about will just suck up all of your attention.  If you notice this, you can bring yourself back to your breath and your heart.  Do it gently and don’t expect perfection, but rather allow the process to unfold.

One day, you’ll go to your sitting place with a real dilemma.  Once you begin to breathe and feel that quiet bliss, you may even forget about the dilemma.  You’ll get an idea, and it may surprise you that you hadn’t thought of it before.  This is God talking.

Or you may see a picture that answers your challenge at hand, and this is also God talking.

There’s a voice you may hear, one that is calm and unmistakable, often referred to as the still, small voice.

This is the voice you’ve been waiting for.  And once you hear it, if you continue to hang out with God in this way, sitting and breathing, you’ll realize that He/She has been talking to you all along…and that the reason you’re sitting and breathing is because it’s what you need to do to hear That Voice, and that it is not at all that that Voice was withholding  to put you through some breathing test.

The Voice is there, and you have the tools to open your inner ears…it just takes some intention and practice.

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